take my hand..

you are the holder of my hand
the keeper of my heart
a pillar to rest when my essence is weak
a candle when i’m trapped in the dark.

you shelter me from the fucked up world
and protect me from the boys
becos boys are the reason we’re so fucked up? =)

i’ll serenade my baby with my dancing chicken song
and pretend that this world, is where i belong
we can smile about the life we used to believe
and talk about the bastards that made our hearts bleed.

so friend through all blackness, lightness and death
we’ll cheers through the tears and eat through the pain.
we’ll coffee and throw darts, at yesterdays regrets
and drink till the memories are forgotten once again.

for baby we are, like remorseful old hags.
destined to stay friends
through the good and the bad.

I think with my heart and not my head.
My head feels impinged by a bullet.
i’m not hanging around for nothing.
Shoot my heart while you’re at it?

I breathe rain on hot cement
I shout out your name.
I watch you turn to face me
and smile as i walk away.

Wipe away those empty skies
and the blood from your lonesome face
Tonight i’ll make your sorrows fade
Tomorrow i’ll drain your tears, dry.

For you are the sparkle in my eye
and the slyness that deceives my soul.
The warmth in my smile and my chilling touch
and you’ve only caught a glimpse of me baby.

hmmm… so out of control. Fuckhead.

i’m not used to washed up emotions. Explain urself soon.

blows a kiss

Today… i was meant to go on a scrubsfest session… but i ended up falling asleep for more eps than i watched…  how great >_<

The food was good though… i even ate salad!!!

Lisa…. you b^tch *sulks* u made me sound like a crackwhore… and u KNOW wt im talking abt!!!!  and btw i’m not swearing @ u… i’m calling u BUTCH… *grins*

i think i’m getting vulnerable and i dont let myself get vulnerable… from here is goodbye sonshine and hello nobody =P i’m a rage of emotions atm.. blech

- old men buying tickets at the door

- biting shoulders

- kissing cheeks

- getting ‘walked’ out

- abusing the bouncer

- hugging the random i thought was annie

WOW what a night!

i heart thee like a summer breeze

that swiftly blows my mind at ease

and smiling looks so good on you

i love the way your hair looks tonight

your eyes are sexing me

and frowning looks good on you too

Your skin is flawless

Your imperfections are a catch

i want you like a chocolate fudge sundae

Dance for me baby, for you are my eye candy

i listen closely to you lingering

and i can’t help but smile to myself

Your voice is crisp in my mind

and your touch is still tingling.

Did i forget to mention i love your smile?

‘So many things I want to say to you… So many things I can’t. So maybe I should just let things chill a bit… hopefully I’ll be over it by then… hopefully I’ll be over you. I was never really the bluntly emotional type… but everything still lingers inside me… I have feelings too you know? Even if you don’t know, or fail to give a damn.

I hate people judging me… and even more so, I hate being seen as weak… So pretending everything is perfect is all that I can do… Cry a little.. smile a little.. it all balances out in the end. People dont always really care, people just pretend to care..it must be some inbuilt moral mechanism.. the art of lying? Either way, when everyone is busy pretending to care… inside they’re secretly laughing at you for being so pathetic… or finding ways to spite you… sometimes I hate people as much as I love them…

Pleated hearts that stain

I want to encircle your name

in a ball of barbed wire

I will set it on fire

And bleed from playing the game.

Scented souls that steal

Moments seem surreal

I’ve lost you in a blink

Hearts don’t think

I’m left with nothing to feel.

Lonely eyes that gaze

Time delays

Though you may go

Only I know

The hurt left behind, stays.

Theatrical smiles that lie

I’d take you to the grave to watch me die.
and the guilt will rake
and your words, oh so fake
Will be the memories that will make you cry.

i want to rip your eyes out and show you the darkness of my world

i want to sew your mouth shut so your words can no longer hurt

your shadow.. it haunts me

your presence.. it bleeds

your spirit… it holds me… it loves it.. it leaves…

every breath you take rapes my soul

every second i’m awake i hear you call..

i’m standing in all this emptiness..

stabbing daggers at your heart.

slitting wrists and smiling again.

But if you were to turn around.. i’d know you were the only one who cared

watch see me struggle away from you. watch the sky and let the clouds cry.

Amidst the crowded lives of betrayal - I drown.

in all the wasted efforts … in all my misery

i’ll turn around and smile at you so that you can believe i’m fine without you.

and when everything seems perfect again.

Smiling is only a facade that deceives the eye.

[ Lisa + Eliza - Emo poets ]

Something deep inside.

Its more than just the love, its the lies.

Its the beauty of your sin

The dark side hiding within.

The games you play

The past you erased

The hurt that overcomes everything.

As mystery unfolds

I build bridges to your worlds untold.

I caress the morning sun

Make it rise. Make you run.

Seeking what can never be found

Chasing what’s no longer around.

The love of death, the death of love.

And all else that exists to you. Be gone.